For How Long?

Subject: For How Long? Sat Sep 10, 2011 11:21 pm

There was a guy my best friend Batku…!!
I started loving him a lot… In December 2010 I proposed him. Not exactly but now we were committed. when i told him that i love him he said “i love you from the 1st day i saw u”…
I was so happy… we both were happy. days went by. Our love grew deeper. we used to talk all day and night. we couldn’t live without each other. he was very understanding. he was helpful. he used to solve my every problem..
there were many problems. but still we didn’t care what people think about it and us. we continued because we used to love staying with each other. there were these small small things which we always maintained..
On 12th June he asked me who was ******….????
I was so shocked when he took his name..!!!
that guy was the 1 who loved me since i was a kid..
we came in contact through social network…!! he proposed me and told me that he is still waiting for me. i said i was already committed. he said he doesn’t care at all, he said he loves me truly.. that impressed me a lot!!
we started chatting a lot and slowly we started flirting..
one day Batku checked out my account…
12th June.. how can i forget it..!! he was totally broken. not that i loved him less but i didn’t know that why i did so???? he was pinched when he read our conversation..
when he asked me all about this. the fear drowned over me. i was shivering. the fear was that i lost him. the fear was of loosing him… he was crying. same was my condition, mine was worst..!!
Next day i text-ed him
“can u do me a favor???
I need some time.
leave me alone 4 few days.
no calls, no messages.
i just need some time alone.”
he asked whether i wanted 2 leave him??????
“I replied”no”
you not understanding me..
just tell me this much that what do u want from me now???”
how said: BE MY LIFE..
i replied will u give me some time 4 it.??
hmmm he replied..
thank u i said.
we spoke 4 the last time now…!!
baby
Love you.
mmmuuuaaaahhhh
now i just want 2 change.
i want to make myself capable for his love!!
i am dying. the only reason i m living is because of his love, true love..
i was so selfish
i hate myself
but how will i live without talking to him??? how can i be normal without his love??? i love him so much. now i realize how wrong i was!!!!
each day goes by and i think if i lose him then???
will he wait for me??? will i be able to change???
I’ll do it…
but how much time will it take????
for how long???????????

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